…Doesn’t mean you should.
I’ve referring to borrowing books, not something tragic, like opening my mouth to someone who doesn’t need to know what’s really going on and just dropping all my emotional baggage onto them.
No, I’m talking about borrowing audiobooks and books fitting the reader’s state of mind.
A couple weeks ago, I borrowed Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert from Overdrive. I put it on my TBR and everything, hoping to get to it. I haven’t. In 11 days, I haven’t picked it and up and now that I can, I don’t want to. The Girl on the Train by Paula Hawkins, same thing. I also have a few physical books that I want to read but I’m just not in the mood to read them.
Eat Pray Love I have read a few times over the years. I’m not in a truly dark place in my life now, but I think I want to make notes in my copy of the book so I’m holding off on that one until next year. The Girl on the Train may also wait, since I own a copy of that book too.
Physical book wise, last night, I had a book picked out and was going to start it after reading a few graphic novels. Something happened between me reading them and the other book. When I went to go pick it up, I couldn’t crack the cover, metaphorically speaking. I just wasn’t interested in it at that point.
I wanted dark. I didn’t want light and fluffy. I wanted dark reading. I had quite a few books that fit that bill. Thankfully, the one I picked up, I haven’t really wanted to put down but had to so I could get work done.
Whether my book choices are trying to help me gear up for the last quarter of my NaNoWriMo novel or not, I’m starting to be very particular about the books I start and those I don’t.
All books are meant to be read from a place of love because all books carry something for the reader. The string of Meh books I’ve had lately, I’ve come to understand I don’t have to finish the books I don’t connect with because there are books, like You’re Never Weird on the Internet (almost) by Felicia Day or History is All You Left Me by Adam Silvera, that deserve more of my attention. I took things from those books (go get it because you’ve got this! And being said after someone dies is okay; the destructive behavior afterwards, no so much) where the Meh books just sort of where a “What not to write” warning.
Longer post than I meant it to be, but I have to do this with real life, too. Being stuck where I am not happy isn’t good for me or those around me. Writing for NaNoWriMo helped me pull out some tools and I’m ready to get back on the saddle and finish other books outside of just the book this month, starting with Shadow.
Happy Friday folks.
Listening to: Little Ones by Highly Suspect. It’s not been on repeat all day today so that’s a plus.
Reading: The Bear and the Nightingale by Katherine Arden. Holy *&^%. I’m not far into it, but it makes me want to grab a warm beverage and a blanket and curl up somewhere so I can just devour the rest of it.
Quote of the Day: “Let today be the day you stop being haunted by the ghost of yesterday. Holding a grudge & harboring anger/resentment is poison to the soul. Get even with people… but not those who have hurt us, forget them, instead get even with those who have helped us.” ― Steve Maraboli