The last month is both easy and difficult to describe.
On the positive, it finally feels like my spiral is over; it won’t ever go away fully, but it does get better. I passed both my classes, continued one, and then started two more. The play I’m in is great and the people working on it are fantastic. It’s nice having new people to talk to and work together while having fun too.
On the negative, I did end up in a spiral, one that I wasn’t sure I was going to get out of. Yesterday, I was playing head games because I don’t feel like the person I was two years ago. Then I have to remember that I’m not. I’ve done so much in two years! I’ve learned a lot in those two years too, about what I can do, what I’m willing to tolerate, how to be a good partner and mom, and how to let go of what (and who) I can’t control. One great quote that I’ve been using is, “You cannot control other people and situations; you can only control your reaction to those people and situations.” I don’t know who said it, but it helps.
So, while spiraling and currently in a reading slump, this is what I did in October.
- Finished two classes.
- Miles reached for Walk to Mordor: 2,044.21.
- Weight: 235.6 (down 4 lbs)
- Books read: 22 books.
- Blog Posts: 3
- Vlog Posts: Maybe 1 or 2, not many.
- Read 200 books: Smashed and currently at 232 for the year!
- Reach 1,000+ miles.
- Get under 230—I was so close to 235!
- 10 blog posts.
- 20 books.
- 6 vlogs + NaNoWriMo Vlogs
- Complete NaNoWriMo with 60k+ words
- Finish painting the bricks
- Figure out Christmas
- 100 squats a day
It’s going to be a busy month, but it’s going to be awesome because I’m going to make it awesome.
Listening to: How to Save Your Own Life by Michael Gates Gill
Quote of the Day: ““Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.” ― Buddha