I had a few things happen to me personally over the weekend. They weren’t bad things just annoyances that are still hitting me today. When I came in this morning for work, I was talking to a friend about them, and about something else too. I forget the exact words, but we ended up talking about managing expectations.
See, I have expectations for things in my life. When things don’t meet those expectations, I get upset. Normal human reaction, especially for someone with control issues. Here’s how all this came up though.
My expectations for this weekend:
- Make between $300 and $500 this weekend ridesharing.
- Finish at least one book that I was reading/listening too.
- Walk seven/eight miles.
- Pick up the remaining things needed for vacation.
- Post two videos: One wrap-up video and one book tag video
One… One thing out of those actually happened. The others were partly done or not done at all.
My expectations for life: That people are open enough that my lifestyle shouldn’t bother them.
I’m gay. I get that there are people out there that don’t like gay people, aren’t okay with, etc. I hadn’t really met any of those people. I’ve met people that don’t agree with my choice to not have children (at one point I did, but now I have three. I’m good.). I’ve met people who make comments about my day job and how I couldn’t make it in the private sector. I’ve met people who wouldn’t even say “Hi” to me because of my size. I’ve met people that I didn’t feel comfortable telling I was gay to while they are stuck in a car with me. So my expectation I guess had become that more people than not are okay with my lifestyle.
I was talking about my son going to Marines this past week to a couple from NC. When I got asked if I was a nervous wreck, I said, “No, but his mom is.” *Confused looks* “But you said ‘your son?’” “Yes, my wife has three boys, so that makes them mine too.” *Subject change*
Needless to say it was awkward after that confession. I did it to myself by being proud of my relationship and our son. I stopped talking so much after that trip and just drove.
I’m waiting to hear back from my application for Amazon Flex so I can give up rideshare driving. Between that instance and people abusing the system (UberPool and Lyft line are for two people per trip. Please stop trying to get away with 3 or more people. Please order the right vehicle for your party, too. OMG, the horror stories people…horror stories–See this upcoming Wednesday’s post). I liked the money but I’m over the people.
Sigh. Come on Sunday!
Listening to: Human by Raggin Bone Man
Quote of the Day: “There’s a certain grace in accepting what your life is and embracing all the good things that have been – but there’s still an expectation of good things to come. Not necessarily what you expected.” ― Emmylou Harris