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Race Day #2

I did it!

Saturday, I completed my second major race, the Baltimore 10-Miler.  It was a beautiful course through Druid Hill Park and then through JHU out to Lake Montebello and back.  Ten miles of officers and people being supportive and plenty of Gatorade and water.  It was awesome… until it wasn’t anymore.  I got to the finish with a broken blister on my right heel again, two rolled ankles, and cramps so bad in both legs.  Oh and my mid-upper back on fire.  Reasons?  I didn’t really train for this one.

Bmore 10 Miler

I finished though… in under the time limit with almost a minute faster pace than the Frederick Half.

Bmore 10 Miler medal

There would have been no way I would have done either of these last year.

So what’s the difference?

Surgery.

In December 2016, I had weight loss surgery.  I was sitting at 396 at this time last year (right picture).  Right now, I’m at 280/281 (left pic).

Comparison

This was not the easy way out.  There is a lot of work that went into getting the surgery.  I started the process a year ago this month in fact.  Every day is a struggle to get through all the fluids and all the protein that I need to intake just to keep going.  Hence the walking more, the getting out more, the doing more things, etc.

Last year, Maryland’s King Crab Challenge was just a thought on a piece of paper of things I wanted to do.  Now, thanks to the surgery and the support I have, it’s a reality this year.  My feet aren’t thanking me for it yet, but my esteem is.

Now to get my legs elevated so my ankle and heel can heal.  19 weeks and 5 days until Baltimore Run Fest!

Have a great week everyone.

Listening to:  Hamilton

Reading:  The Shack by Wm. Paul Young

Quote of the Day:  “Nothing stops the man who desires to achieve. Every obstacle is simply a course to develop his achievement muscle. It’s a strengthening of his powers of accomplishment.” ― Thomas Carlyle

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Bragging

Morning everyone.

Yesterday, I completed my first ever half marathon.

Finish

I really want to stop talking about it because I feel like I’m bragging about it.  I get that I should be proud of my accomplishment because not everyone has done a half-marathon before.  Maybe I’m just a little weird on this one and I don’t like bragging.

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A half-marathon is definitely not something I would have ever done before losing 100 lbs.  I had thought about it and had even put it on my Day Zero Someday list.  I signed up for the race in February when Crystal and I had been talking about it.  I reasoned that it would be a good goal and reward to myself for getting the surgery and for staying mostly on track.  With me, it’s go big or go home so I signed up for not only the Frederick Half that I completed yesterday, but also the Baltimore 10-Miler (June) and the Baltimore Half (October).  Completing all three runs puts me in the King Crab category of Maryland Races.

After that run, I’ll have gotten five medals this year and completed three in-person races, just in time for the Time-Turner event through the HRC.  In October, there is the chance to order the medals/register for the events we may have missed throughout the year.  There is only one medal I want from that one this year:  The Perfect Prefect!

So other than getting over the soreness I’m still experiencing from yesterday, I’m not doing too much right now.

Have a great week!

Listening to:  Amazon’s Long Weekend Rock playlist

Reading:  Fables Volume 10

Quote of the Day:  “Never quit. It is the easiest cop-out in the world. Set a goal and don’t quit until you attain it. When you do attain it, set another goal, and don’t quit until you reach it. Never quit.” ― Bear Bryant

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Feelings

That’s where I am today.  I have a few reasons for why I’m here but there’s only one colossal reason that being unfeeling is hitting home for me, and Ray too, right now.

One of the things never really talked about before weight loss surgery, or after, is how hard emotions can be when the one thing you ran to when you were feeling hurt, or happy, or sad, or anything that is above or below “numb” is taken away.  Food has to be replaced by something because then we have to face the monsters that are the reason we ran to food in the first place.

Right now, my vice is music.  Music and whatever kind of candy I can find to put in my mouth to help with sugar cravings.  My office keeps a dish of Jolly Ranchers, Fireballs, and mints.  Willpower pushes me past them sometimes; others I just give in.  I tell myself it helps me write, which is true, in a way.  But sugar is addictive, and I had surgery to get over one addiction only to dive harder into another one.

Stepping back to the emotional reason for this post:  My passion for some things is fading.  I feel like I’m in a permanent state of numb.  Sure, in the moment of awesome things, I’m good.  But that feeling never really stays unless it’s a negative feeling.  I find myself holding on to the anger and the need to scream.  I find myself not doing things I used to love and avoiding people and situations I used to enjoy.  Part of that is getting married and not having to work on finding a mate because you found the person who makes you happy and that you want to spend your life with.  The other part is that I can’t drink like I used to, I’m almost always working on something, and being in situations where you have to watch just about everything you eat can be embarrassing depending on the people you are hanging out with.

The upside to this is that I do want to do more.  My numbness and anxiety has me wanting to do everything and nothing at all.  If I do something, the pleasure and the passion is there, and then it’s not.  There is plenty to look forward to, but the instant gratification that food used to bring is gone.  Exercising and moving until I’m sore helps me remember that, and I’m happy that I can move better.  The downside to moving a lot more and doing more physically is that I don’t do much at home, which means that unless Ray is cleaning the house, it doesn’t get cleaned.  It’s not fair to her at all.  So what’s a person to do?

That’s where I’m at today.

Sorry for the melodrama.

Listening to:  The Laughing Corpse by Laurell K. Hamilton

Reading:  Wolfsbane by Patricia Briggs

Quote of the Day:  “Life has many ways of testing a person’s will, either by having nothing happen at all or by having everything happen all at once.” ― Paulo Coelho

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Food and Celebration

This weekend, I went to an event with one of my best friends.  Something that came up in conversation was how much food has become a part of the holidays and most celebrations.  For birthdays, there is cake and ice cream.  For St. Patrick’s Day, there is corned beef and cabbage.  For Thanksgiving and Christmas, there is almost never a party or event that doesn’t have food of some kind, be it holiday pies, turkey, stuffing, cranberry sauce, cookies, you name it.

There are even food calendars which list which foods go with each day!

So what are former/recovering food junkies supposed to do?

Keep a Log

This seems like a pretty basic thing to do since everyone can do it.  That’s the point, though:  Everyone can do it.  I prefer Lose It!, a free application for both Apple and Android.  I can add my own recipes, serving sizes, calories (if I go to Potbelly and use their nutrition calculator), or search their database of foods.  I’ve also tried Weight Watchers before, too.  Both systems let me track the food I’ve consumed.  Sometimes I go over the limit I set for myself, and that’s okay as long as I don’t make it an everyday thing.

Host Alternative Events

Happy hours are a great way to network, but they aren’t often held in places where calories and portions are small, not to mention the drinks.  I will be the first to say that I miss going out with some of my friends but that seemed to be the only time we hung out was when there were drinks involved.  If your friends live close by, hosting different events like a game night or a book club night or even a movie night either at home or out.  I’m doing a Paint Nite event with Ray, but there are companies that will come to a person’s house for a paint event.  It depends on what you and your friends like to do that doesn’t revolve so much around food.

Create a Non-Food Reward System

One of the issues that I’ve always had and have noticed in others is that food is often part of our rewards system.  I lost 15 lbs this month?  Great!  Now I can have that cookie I’ve been craving all week, right?  I could, but isn’t there something else I’d like to do?  Sure.  I could go get a new book, get a pedicure, take myself out to a movie, go for a walk through the mall and not buy anything, go play in the park, binge watch a few episodes of a show I like, etc.  These are just things that I use for my rewards.  Find something that works for you and keeps pushing you to reach for your goals.

Find People on a Similar Journey

Youtube, Google, Facebook, Pinterest, and Meetup can be your best friends when it comes to finding other things to do besides eating.  I’ve found videos on how to self-publish my book, alternative history, crash courses, and vloggers who are on their own weight-loss journeys.  Sometimes seeing other people going through similar things helps keep things in perspective.  I use Google and Pinterest to come up with exercises, non-food rewards, and other blogs or information that I can use for this blog.  Groups can be found on Facebook and Meetup.  There are running groups, coffee groups, social groups, etc.

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These are just a few things that can help in a recovering foodie in a foodie world.  It’s so easy to fall back into old habits.  I still want pizza and soda some days.  I can have a few bites of a slice, but I don’t want to stretch my stomach back out with soda.  But finding alternatives like a ricotta bake and infused water can help me stay on track.  Keeping that log holds me accountable and having a non-food reward system isn’t always exciting but using some of my 101 goals for those rewards helps me tackle both.

Listening to:  Sunday Spiel:  Let’s Talk about Health by Glitterandlazers

Reading:  The Line by J.D. Horn

Quote of the Day:  “Nothing happens by itself… it all will come your way, once you understand that you have to make it come your way, by your own exertions.” – Ben Stein

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Changes and Letting Go

Yesterday was an off day with many of my emotions tied to my weight loss, or lack thereof.  In December, I had weight loss surgery.  I went from brushing up against 400 lbs (highest weight was 396)  maybe nine months ago to flirting with 300 lbs (I was at [enter weight] this morning).  For me, this was difficult to swallow.

It’s been almost fourteen years since I weighed this much.  Fourteen years, I went to Mountaineer Challenge Academy and lost about 70 lbs, getting down under 250 lbs.  I was excited, and I liked how I looked.  It didn’t last, though.  I went to college at 16 and being away from home with no real authority figure there, I binged and did some idiotic stuff.  After two weeks, I went back home, back to my baggie clothes that didn’t fit anymore, went to work and went back to high school.  I tried out for the track team but not having a drill sergeant in your face barking at you to run is different.  I didn’t run and therefore didn’t stay after the first practice.  I gained all the weight back I had lost and stayed the fattest kid in my class.

As an adult, I got down to 322 by walking and doing cross-fit.  Stuff is hard but doing it with other people made it worth it.  After a few months, I stopped.  And like clockwork, within a few years, I was back up to 396.  It hurt that I had let myself get there far gone again, but it was no one’s issue but my own.

The other day, I made a comment on my Facebook about being scared because this is the smallest I’ve been weight wise in a very long time.  I’m scared because this is unknown territory right now.  I’m training for a half marathon, and I want to run it, not fast but at least a good bit of it.  I’m procrastinating on the training though because… I’m scared I’m going to break the treadmill.  I know that is just an excuse but to me, that’s a legit excuse.  It’s cold up here right now, even though tomorrow is going to be in the 70’s.  I have a seven-mile walk/run tomorrow before I go to Pottercon with a friend of mine.

I mentioned all of this to Ray yesterday, and we went shopping for smaller clothes for me.  Granted it was just Walmart but I haven’t been able to wear Wal-mart pants and jeans in a few years.  We got one pair of jeans for me.  I wanted to try on a 24 just for giggles since I can put on the 26’s without unbuttoning them.

Now to clean out our room and donate what we are never going to wear again before we got shopping at Torrid Sunday.

Happy Friday folks.

Listening to:  Back to Chubby’s Past Diets Part 1.

Reading:  Etched in Bone by Anne Bishop

Quote of the Day:  “What would you do if you weren’t afraid?” ― Sheryl Sandberg

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