This morning I wasn’t sure what to write. Pinterest, again, is a plethora of ideas.
May’s Journal prompts were pretty short and sweet. Today’s was “something that needs to change.”
Thinking about things that need to change is tough. Sometimes, we focus on the big things in our lives that take the most to change, like trying to find a new job. Notice how we only ever look for a new job when things are going really poorly at our current one? I hadn’t thought about that until I started typing that out, but honestly, I never once looked for jobs that I thought might be interesting while I was happy working where I was. It was only after things got bad that I started looking.
Other times, it’s the small things, like waking up earlier and making the coffee at home vs rushing to get coffee and then rushing to catch your train or drive into work. Something so small as that can change whether the day is good or bad. Of course, I have that to look forward to in three weeks.
So something that needs to change for me, at this moment: I am procrastinating on writing up a list of things that need to be done by the person coming in behind me. Why? Because I don’t really want this time to be over, and yet I’m ready for it to be. It’s funny really. I keep wanting to do awesome things and I want the person coming in behind me to be awesome too. So why am I procrastinating on doing something that helps them be awesome? I don’t really know.
Something else that I need to change: Not writing. I keep saying this one. I keep ignoring my own stories in favor of reading other peoples. My stories aren’t going to get out there if I don’t write them. Some of them I have to go back and change the characters because I don’t want to write heterosexual characters anymore; that’s not who I am. Maybe changing the character’s gender will help; maybe it won’t. Either way, I need to stop not writing and just get back into it. That will probably be easy once I am back home in my new office with time on my hands again.
These seem like small changes, and they are. I just have to get them done.
What are some changes you’ve been stalling on?
Listening to: Me typing.
Reading: The Mists of Avalon by Marion Zimmer Bradley, Midnight at the Bright Ideas Bookstore by Matthew Sullivan, and The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson
Quote of the Day: “All life demands struggle. Those who have everything given to them become lazy, selfish, and insensitive to the real values of life. The very striving and hard work that we so constantly try to avoid is the major building block in the person we are today.” ― Pope Paul VI