I’ve been going through my 101 list to see what I can complete, what I can start, and what things are going to need to have some steps added to them to get to that goal.
So today is question day: #8: What stands between you and happiness?
When I asked this question a few years ago, there were a few answers folks had given me: Pride, hopelessness, and negativity and negative thoughts.
For me, the answer to this question boils down as: 1) What makes me happy? and 2) What do I need to do to be able to do those things?
1) Simple things make me happy. Spending time with my family even if we aren’t doing much. Focusing on things like cross-stitch and writing makes me happy. Reading someone else’s story makes me happy.
2) Time, patience, love and understanding that the first drafts don’t have to be perfect and that crafting beautiful things isn’t always a perfect process.
So what would happen if I had none of those things? What would happen if one day, my family and friends up and left me? What would happen if one day, I didn’t have my hands to type with or my eyes to see with? That’s the other questions my brain is asking myself.
If I had no family or friends, life would be lonely. I’m a social person with co-dependency issues. For those of you who don’t know what co-dependency is, it comes down to I focus on other people’s problems to avoid dealing with my own. It can be very sad and I don’t have a whole jumble of problems, but I do have some that aren’t ones I want to focus on.
If I lost use of my hands, I’d cry for a very long time. Without my hands, just about everything I love would be gone. My eyes wouldn’t be as dire but life would still suck. Would it be worth dying? No. Would it suck? Hell yes. This just means not taking things like that for granted. I have them but tomorrow I could easily not.
Oh right. Answer the question!
Pride, guilt, blame, time, and a perfectionist mentality. If I can’t do it perfectly the first, I don’t want to do it at all. It leads to many projects being restarted and thrown away and many things I want to do never started.
What stands between you and your happiness?
Listening to: “The DaVinci Code” by Dan Brown